Vicissitudes

Vicissitudes (n): One of the sudden or unexpected changes or shifts often encountered in one's life, activities, or surroundings.

I haven't been able to blog for days, not because I was too busy with college - on the contrary, I was freer than I was in school - but I just didn't have the mood to blog. That kind of explains things, doesn't it?

I guess I didn't expect to be so confused with my new environment. I kind of forgot that you guys wouldn't be around in Inti. Maybe I just glossed over the fact during the holidays because I didn't want to think about it. The realisation hit me in full force yesterday, especially after Stephanie's party. I didn't realise how much I was - and still am - going to miss you guys!

Several people have been great help, yes, during my emo attacks. Can't have done without them, and I'm talking about since before SPM. And it was so good to meet up again with Xia Xun during break today. =)

Overall, it's been pretty fine, these first few days, though one does tend to get lonely sometimes when there's nobody to walk with to the library or the secondhand bookshop. Or basically just trying to find a quiet place to sit, because during breaks, it's hectic everywhere. Mostly seniors though, as they tend to congregate in certain spots, but then again, it's only the third day for the freshies like me.

I've been bringing Plath's journal with me for two days now. It's like some sort of comfort, with the thought in the background that there's always a book to drown in when you have no idea where to go or what to do. And moreover, it's one of my current favourite writers, Plath. I love the part in which she writes after getting through a trying period of time.

Now a love, a faith, an affirmation is conceived in me like an embryo. The gestation may be a while in producing, but the fertilization has come to pass. ~ Plath

What do you think of that?

I still haven't found another Muse fan yet, by the way. Guess that will take time. Most of the others don't seem to read much...yet again, it takes time. And when you Taylors people start your A-Levels, mind you remember lunch. And me, of course ;)

It's funny really, when you think about what's going on with a person when he/she can seem so happy and carefree. I'm still surprising some of my friends now, which is surprising too, as I've known them for so long.

I visit this dam every year in Penang. Not much to look at in this shot, but believe me, it's beautiful when you take in the whole view, with the half-hidden stream descending from the hills and the barely seen Buddhist retreat sanctuary.

Love is an illusion, but I would be willingly fall for it if I could believe in it. ~ Plath